its 1:39 [29 Jun 2006|01:39am] [ music | nine inch nails ] i cant sleep and im bored outta my mind so i decided to write a livejournal entry. pretty cool right? summer has been pretty good recently. i have bought way too many clothes and today i have promised myself i am not going to buy any more. im still working on growing my hair out, its getting really long and i cant wait til i can braid it into long loose pigtails. i have also decided to try to cut back on smoking, i really dont want to keep this stupid habit for long. i quit my stupid job at mellow mushroom. fuck stupid retarded bitches that manage to STILL have a job as a server and also be forty years old. its so funny because if i ever came into contact with josh or jonnie in public i actually think i would spit on them, and i never think about stuff like that usually. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways i have pretty much devoted my time to being a housewife, i now wash henrys clothes and vaccuum and call my friends during the day to gossip. i swear im channeling a 32 year old soccer mom deep down. i actually used the word "brunch" the other day. amazing. but honestly, the best feeling in the world is having a nice clean apartment and henry coming home and telling me how nice the place looks. in other news, its so damn hot outside and i want to go swimming, but not in our apartment pool. im definately afraid to be in the water there. me and elise are still planning to go to the lake sometime soon. i have to throw her a huge party for her going away to college thingy. anyways, im off to try to make an attempt to go to sleep and finish watching three men and a baby. coooool. comment

[25 Apr 2006|11:52pm] ahhh! my birthday is in 10 days! i am going to six flags & then going to the cheesecake factory and and and hopefully getting some awesome presents! and me and elise are planning to go to the BEACH later in the summer! yay!!! on a sadder note, i have to work lunch tomorrow. sucks. i get paid on friday, lets hope its a big fat check so i can do some more work on my sleevey poo. i also have all the rest of my tattoos planned out so i can finish them and be done!!! sweet! comment

[12 Apr 2006|09:45pm] [ mood | fat ] [ music | nothing ] i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body no matter how much weight i lose, i will still look awkward as fuck in clothes. 3 comment

[05 Apr 2006|11:57pm] [ music | nine inch nails ] I!!!!!!!!!! am going to nine inch nails june 7th! and getting a sleeve in 2 weeks 7 comment

[08 Mar 2006|01:45pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Gorillaz - Dare ] i always update my livejournal when im bored or waiting on something. In this case im waiting on Henry to come home from his new job, which is carmax. hes a detailer type person, which means he pretty much works on cars to restore them back to their original appearance. he will be making some killer money and pretty much be able to pay for the apartment by himself. but that doesnt mean im quitting my job, i really like having my own money. me elise and henry are also planning another road trip in july to conneticut, it should be so much fun. ive still been going to the gym, and ive lost 10 pounds. size 14 whats up. im still working really hard to lose more, im planning on keeping my size at a 10/12, which is still a little ways away, but im glad improvements are showing up. other than that ive been keeping busy with working and fixing up me and henrys room. ikea is my new favorite place to shop. i take out my not-being-able-to-shop-for-clothing rage on shoes and ikea. water, diet coke, or minute maid light lemonade is all i drink now. i splurge on food pretty much once a week, and then i feel like a fatty. monday was my chicken wings, cheese sticks, beer, and ice cream night. which will never be all together again, by the way. unless i wanna have a heart attack when im 19. im also planning on quitting smoking sometime. i dont know when, but i know i definately should. me, elise and my mom tried quitting, but we failed. im sure we'll try again sometime soon. anyways, on that note, time to have a smoke. peace! 1 comment

sweet! [14 Feb 2006|02:36pm] happy valentines day! i moved in a new apartment. me and elise joined a gym and have been taking yoga classes, ive already lost 5 pounds. my body is so sore i cant hardly stand it, but i love it. i have to work tonight but i only stay for three hours, which is good because closing is such a bust, i always smell like pizza and pine sol when i get out. These are things i am looking forward to: not being sore anymore losing more weight my hair getting longer than it already is getting more tattoos everything has really been going well for me other than that. im really glad me and elise have started going to the gym. its ten times more positive if you have someone that can motivate you and that you can laugh with. and henry is planning on joining the same gym so all three of us can work out together, which will be so much fun. i also have a newfound love for the olympics. all in all, things are really really good. 7 comment

[03 Dec 2005|03:07pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | paris hilton ] its been so long since ive updated this thing, but what the hell. alot of things have been going on recently, dave moved out yessssss, i love my job, i love my new friends and i love my life. i'm maturing so much as a person and its an awesome feeling. florida with elise and henry is 12 days away and im so excited. south america and me getting married is coming up soon, too. its going to be the best. everything is changing around me and its the most comforting feeling ever. the new paris hilton song is awesome, too, btw. 6 comment

[23 Jul 2005|10:27pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | air ] so im not even half as mad as i was before. much better actually. i still am in a wreck of a mood half the time. but what can ya do. after some shopping, venting, and laughing i feel better than before. i want fall to come more than anything. i want to break out my jackets and go out for hot tea and watch the leaves turn. i am actually starting to miss school. but then again, i dont want summer to end. i love staying up til the buttcrack of dawn every night and the hot sticky midnight weather. i actually watched the sun come up the other day. it was amazing. anyways, tomorrow i am most likely going to see my cousins, which is exciting. i also want to see the devils rejects with henry soon. awesome dudes. peace! comment

[20 Jul 2005|12:49pm] [ mood | UNDERFUCKINGAPPRECIATED ] i hate getting yelled at day in and day out. its like the person that im suppose to get the most support from is the person that tears me down all the time. and when i try to calmly ask him to stop yelling all i get is more fucking screaming. seriously what the fuck?!?!?!?!? does he not fucking know all hes doing is hurting me when he does this shit to me? im fucking sick of it!!! i do so much shit for him its unfathomable, i make his fucking dinner, make his fucking breakfast, clean his fucking clothes, get his outfit fucking ready for him and what do i get? i get FUCKING SHIT. FUCK THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW, ive done so much over the past almost three years to clean myself up for him, quit doing shit, and become a better person, at least i let him know i love him. i cant even get that shit from him anymore, what the fuck. i know im letting off a shitload of steam, so ill probably regret this later. 2 comment

cute face little waist but a big behind [30 Jun 2005|11:44pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | mike jones ] so i havent written in this shit in a longgg time. but im happy. very happy. i feel like ive been given a clean slate. and its really awesome. but my eyes are dry, which is no good. ive been tanning like crazy lately, which is cool. the only bad thing that has happened is our washer keeps leaking. sucky. oh well, not much else to write about, except life being great. peace out! 9 comment

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